Its all in my head

My brain-O-brain :p

I was sitting alone on a cliff and watching over the the rushing sea .And I was thinking .Uh !!my best friends say I am the queen of thinking and one day I will drive myself crazy .LOL,ain't I already crazy :p
So I was doing what I am best at.Though everybody thinks all the time and its natural phenomenon because they have a biological organ called brain.But I am part of that clan of humans which think a lot and I mean a lotttttttt.

So where were we, yeh so I was thinking.My nervous system was super active ,my dear brain had  many many thoughts flying in it on broomsticks and making a emotional cocktail.I had some weird stories being told in different voices all in my head which were pretty  alienish (Dictionary tells me there is no word like that but who cares :p ) .

Fantasies ,nightmares, reality all were jumbled  onto one another.Every dream I have ever had and the crazy stories I made out of them all were flying across.The aims I have and the things I wish for were spiraling all around too.Pictures of people were zooming in and out .They were also triggering the feelings I have for them.Memories from past were being played more clearer then HD quality.Every memory felt fresh ,even the ones that I so wanted to scratch away from my very soul. But I guess so today they were all there to jinx me.
 I was replaying  my favorite memories again and again in the hope to cling on to them forever .Staring long time at pictures of the people I love and tearing the ones over and over again who I so want to forget .One part of me was trying to bury some conversations deep which haunt me all the time .I was tying to erase worst past experiences ,awkward moments and unwanted stuff.

They can bring smiles and joy.At the same time can creep us out and making our life a living hell .

The blame game was going on too.Like who I blame for what happened in my life at different times. Cursing the ones who played games and broke my trust.But then I ended up cursing my self on my mistakes,stupidities ,wrong decisions and choices.

Blame game :@

Then came the happy times with loud trumpet's sound.The uncountable gleeful moments rolled and made my heart do that cheerful jumpy thing .
The best moments,achievements ,celebration and unforgettable time spent with all loved ones.The care ,love and importance those great people give me  and my true sincere feelings for them.The ones who always have my back and are there for me no matter what.And my promises to them to be there for them in time of joy and grief.

Olalallala I am soooo happy :D

The urge of doing crazy,risky and weird stuff was also developing. The craving to do something spontaneous was igniting in me .
Parchments of things to do and not to do were spinning around in my thinking trunk  too .
Some bullets of realization also struck me ,the bad habits I have and things I always do wrong.
Need to fix this and that (I made mental notes ).

Yin&Yang (My dark and Bright side )

And then to shut that all out I started singing one of my all time favorite song by blowing my vocal cords(News Flash :No ones ears were bleeding  by dint of my  bad singing because its all in my head  remember;) ).

 'Cause I want to live like animals
Careless and free like animals
I want to live
I want to run through the jungle
The wind in my hair and the sand at my feet
 Sometimes this life can get you down
It's so confusing
There's so many rules to follow
tAnd I feel it
Cause I just run away in my mind
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (The Animal Song by Savage Garden )
<3 <3 <3

Random:Another Animalic song I love <3  :p

I danced like a loner.

I danced like a loner in this deceiving world,
People mock all the time in this fake world,


Such fabrication of emotions suffocates me ,
Diplomacy is cheap and sold out as something free,


Nothing satisfies the appetite for honesty ,
Trust is broken with tactful modesty,


Lies are spoken with a little concerns of consciousness ,
playing games and tricking is what it is in dominance.

I danced with the passion to live it all

I love u kidoo...................:-D

So I just met him for second time.First time we met when he was just 1 year old and now this was his second visit to Pakistan .Sachal is now big 6 years old boy.He is my aunt's elder son and they live in USA .His visit was very short but we had loads of fun.We played alien intruder ,solved a million mazes,tried a debating activity,wrote stories ,sketched ,talked about movies, books and lots more.

He even wrote acrostic poem for me and it was absolutely lovely.

"Love I am ill for you,

Only one kiss will cure,

Over 10 months I have been sick for love ,

End of my sickness"

By Sachal Panhwar Sheikh.

He loves writing and I share the same interest so I showed him some of my work and  also this little blog of mine.So he asked me to write something for him and upload it here.And so I promised him that as soon as possible I will write something for him and upload it.He gave me few great ideas too .He said that I should try writing acrostic poetry and even explained me how it is written .So here is something I wrote for him:

1.

SACHAL.

Smart and superb.

Awesome.

Cool and charming.

Handsome and hilarious.

Angel.

Loving.

 .............................................END..........................................

2.

Sweet he is and full of  creative ideas.

Angel like kid with a gold's heart.

Caring and super cool guy.

Hero with extraordinary power of creativity.

Awesome imagination that creates wonders.

Love my darling sweetheart a lot.

So this is my dedication for him................ 

Love u Sachal and miss u a lot.................. <3 <3 <3

FACES............:-) , :-P , :-D , :-\ , :-(!!!!

There are countless faces around us painted with different colors of life.Few just stared at me right now .May be they just silently commented on me or were thinking something else.Who knows what mingling of neurons and thoughts is going on inside their minds because what I see is the masked face only.
I can't hear their thoughts because I don't own some mutant power like Edward.

EDWARD <3

I really wish that I could have a sneak peak into the minds around me but this wish is as impossible as getting an invisibility cloak.

HARRY'S MAGICAL INVISIBILITY CLOAK!!

Faces express emotions true as well as fake ones.Some expressions come on our faces naturally ,some are controlled ones and some are there just to get attention .But faces can also hide the deepest secrets away from the world.

CHESHIRE CAT !

For instance just now my class fellow gave me a Cheshire smile and asked me what am I doing.Her face depicted a sweet expression but the naked truth is she is the same girl I heard few seconds before talking really ill about me.But still I answered her that I was working on my next blog while having a fake expression of  sweetness .So that's how our faces disguise the reality in a fabricated mask.
Faces  mislead us by not expressing the heart's real feelings .Its hard to be a chary person and not to get trapped by the bluffing faces.

"FACES CAN TRICK YOU IN WAYS YOU WILL NEVER KNOW"
"AND AT TIMES YOU HAVE NO CHOICE TO  JUST  BOW"

Faces express love,sadness ,jealousy,pride,anger, anxiety ,surprise ,embarrassment,care,flirtatiousness, confidence ,tediousness ,audaciousness, disgust ,affection and boredom etc.Our faces can be truculent ,enigmatic and ecstatic too.Blank expression is also a weird mask of face but still interesting one .Its can confuse people,make them curious and can create a whooshing cyclone inside them.Faces also can give you sleepless nights .They can make you go head over heels in love with them or get you ragged over them too.

OLALALALAL................BLUSHING!!!:-P

Some faces make you stare at them for ages and also dream about them.(some make u blush too ...:-)  )

There are important faces,not so important faces and also the ones u hate.Some can also freak the hell out of you and turn into your bloodcurdling nightmares.Faces trigger all kinds of emotions inside you.

Every face has also a tale to tell of itself but what is revealed  depends upon the will of master.Gorgeous faces with great features are there and also the ugly ones(BUT PEOPLE SHOULD NEVER BE JUDGED BY THAT).Because there can be a pernicious being hidden behind a urbane face or a gentleman hidden behind a beastly face.
( FREE ADVISE:As its  said don't judge a book by its cover so don't ever judge a person by its facial beauty)
Faces can be of our friends, family ,foes, teachers, acquaintances, relatives, lovers or just another face in the crowd.

Another fun face world is :

 Addiction for many but its also a way to enjoy the company of different faces.

The only thing which I do and most of us do is to explore the faces in our own ways.Because curious minds of humans can never leave this adventure and cannot resist making theories of there observations.So let faces make your heart tingle and raise high alarms in your brain.

MISJUDGMENTS

Being misjudged is the worst feeling,

Its extremely hard to do the dealing,

Perception through all eyes varies,

They are not always  sweet berries,

First they all do is freak you,

They start a fire with a cue,

When after your adrenalin calms down,

Your mind tries not to frown,

Then you try to maneuver a way out of it,

Its the only hope to correct the bit,

But that bit is whooshing volcano inside,

On your face just fake expression resides,

Correcting everything is hard as steel,

We want everything should pass like a eel,

We hide our reaction and act smart,

But the misconceptions hurt our heart,

But we have to face the music bravely,

And free our selves from the society's slavery.

                             THE END

PS:People usually say that u should have a damn care attitude.We can try to have it but the truth is ,it bothers us a lot when we are misunderstood.We can pretend that we don't care .But the ugly truth deep is we do care.
Facing the music is the right attitude.We should analyze the whole situation and act calmly(means don't OVERREACT it only messes up the situation)!!

Wake up khushu!!:-)

So October was the last time I posted anything (and its December OMG ) .Its been a long time since I haven't uploaded anything.Reason is not that I have been busy.The lame reason is that I have been really  lethargic  and moody.So this post is just a wake up post for myself. WAKE UP KHUSHU!:-p

November was full of memorable and happy events.I wanted to write about them and even wrote a draft but sluggish me never uploaded anything.

November's happenings:

Meaty Bakra Eid went great ,enjoyed a lot with family.All three days were great.

ANA MAROOOO got engaged(that was the happiest event ).

Attended a conference "Big shift towards change"( superb learning experience and fun too)

Details maybe would come soon if  I will be  in  mood to upload( yeah I am mooddy  :-P)

WAKE UP KHUSHU................:-p

So soon there will be something on my blog  because I am trying to get over my lazy phase.

Random poem :-D

High up the skies,

Where the free spirit flies,

With the swift moves,

The cold air booms,

Across the clouds of happiness,

Where the birds feel freeness,

That's the place where I celebrate with joy,

And its also my refuge when ever I cry.

            THE END

PS: From few days everything has just turned a bit  challenging so me maneuvering a way outa it  .And have  started a few things from ABC!Fingers crossed that everything works out well...........................

REST IN PEACE SIR ERROL .......................................MISS U !!

SIR ERROL IN HIS JOLLY MOOD!!!

So on the 20th -October -2011 , I lost a dear teacher and administrator.It is really heartrending for me and my school  that he is no more with us.He was ill since last few years but still his death was shocking for us all.We were all really grieved by his death.  
The sparking and great personality left us on his journey of after life.  He was an awesome human being . He was cheerful and funny  too.He had sweet relations with all because all people he met turned into his friends.

As an administrator he was the best we could ever get.He believed in studies with fun.He took me and my fellow mates on many excursions and also planned loads of fun things for us. He taught us to help poor and needy in any way we could.He took initiative  to raise funds for mental hospital patients and also for flood victims .He was a sweet fatherly figure to all his students .His death was  heartbreaking and it created a space which could never be filled . His funeral was attended by all his students including previous ones .Many teachers and his former colleagues also attended it.It was indeed a  mournful and melancholy for us all.    

But still its the rule of the world that everybody has to leave  one day.This world is just an exam for us all not our real destiny. Real life is after death  and all that counts are our good deeds.

                OUR DEEDS AND LIFE AFTER DEATH

"life is an exam which will be soon gone"
"God will of God in this world should be is just won"

"That's a straight way to  beautiful heaven"
"This is the quest we all are in"


"Help people in the state of need"
"And God will always give u feed"

"Make yourself a sincere human being"
"The life after death is the real beginning"


Sir Errol was an excellent person and he had a heart of gold for all people.We truly gonna miss him.I pray that God give his family patience to bear this lose.
May God bless him and may his soul rest in peace.